I am an artist, I would rather say I have a few talents and this is the largest misery of my life because you can either be talented or be an Indian.
I am a writer and even a poet but I doubt if that counts anywhere. Even if I was a painter it would not have or even if I was a rapper it would not have mattered at the end of the day because people can clap for your talent but in India, you cannot make a living out of talent.
Such is the plight of artists like me in India for we are just faces of the mammoth quantum of the crowd and there is no platform that offers any recognition to our art.
So, when I tell someone that I am a writer and poet people laugh at me and they say, “Ok! but when are you starting to prepare for a government job” and trust me when someone pulls you down like this it becomes very hard to stand up again for yourself.
But it is not their fault actually when they say that I should rather look for a stable job and that its good you have some talents but life doesn’t run on talent.
They just give me a reality check and I cannot really blame them for showing me what the truth is.
This is when you start to feel cursed because if I had no talent I would be living an ordinary job, maybe sitting in the bank as an officer with a monotonous 9 to 5 job or at most would have been hired by a good IT company for coding all day long. But then I have a certain talent and most importantly I back myself for the talent I have and this is what never lets me settle for something ordinary! I often tell myself that I would make it big one day! If Chetan Bhagat can why not me? But then almost
I often tell myself that I would make it big one day! If Chetan Bhagat can why not me? But then almost
If Chetan Bhagat can why not me? But then almost
But then almost
But then I have a certain talent and most importantly I back myself for the talent I have and this is what never lets me settle for something ordinary! I often tell myself that I would make it big one day!
I often tell myself that I would make it big one day! If Chetan Bhagat can why not me?
But then almost every day my patience surrenders and my parents and the society make fun of me and rather taunt me or admonish me for not trying to get a government job.
Is it criminal if I don’t what my talent to stale at some dark and depressing office?
This is just like cricket in India, we are a cricketing frantic nation and we have so many people aspiring to play for the nation but how many actually manage too?
The plight of writers and poets is even worse, at least cricketers have Ranji or the IPL to showcase their talent but our talent is just restricted to winning a literary event at a college fest! if this prevails I surely cannot survive merely on talent and maybe it is the time I need to spray kerosene on my dreams and burn them and sit in a bank opening accounts for I would have to do something to earn a living which my profound talent surely can’t.
Shows like India’s Got Talent recognize all sorts of talents, dancing, singing and even breaking 100 coconuts in 60 seconds and then there are many other shows which are platforms for dancers, singers and now even comedians but who cares if writing and poetry too is a talent.
We just spend our entire lives searching for an opportunity to prove ourselves and see my plight, I can’t even publish my book unless I pay handsomely to a publishing house! What do I do with talent? My talent is a waste and I am cursed with my talent.
Author: Divesh Gill